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a new start for me...
once again...

i having strawberry sundae again!
n..n!
they got new ice cream!
strawberry shortcake mc flurry!!
woo!




jia lat..
i hv reach the disk space quota for uploading photos in this blog..
hv to change blog again!

decided to go for chalet..esp when i kw that the 2 queens at hm will be away to JB too..
woo!

reached down tampines at 5+p.m ytd...
took a bus ride to SAF chalet area...
daryl..justin..pearlyn..se hao..cythnia were already there..bbq-ing..

it was rather boring actually...
i nv get to eat much sweet potatoes...cause daryl is bad in choosing them..all tasted bitter...

does he hv to be so secretive talking to clara?


daryl n me were playing fun at kitchen..
trying to cook the stingrays..
1st was burnt...2nd was uncooked..
even justin came to play along..
justin use ribena..daryl use satay sauce...i use normal sambal sauce...



stairs to rooms upstairs!






able to go changi village cause lk drove me n ivan there..
along the way..they 2 were super noisy....
we went to Hanamco bar restaurant..
they drink beer...i ate my 'dinner'..
pork chop bunjo...


i was totally stunned by lk's driving..sudden stunt...
freaking..

we were playing cards when back to chalet then...
they lose..drink  beer..
i lose...drink lemon tea n ribena..
i hv 1 bottle of 1.5L of lemon tea n 1/2 a bottle of ribena aft the game ended...

then it was wii...

tsk tsk tsk...
he nv notice that we keep noticing him...


me n daryl still awake when every1 sleep...
i wanted to go see sunrise..
so we walked to changi beach..
on the way..we saw few 'ah guas' too..
their body figures were..woo...

we sitted n chatted for quite long b4 the sky goes bright..
we nv get to see any sun rise..cause clouds r too thick..
bt..
the view is still very beautiful...esp the clouds...

beach is such a nice place...
sun..sea...sand...






 


went back to sleep at sofa at 8a.m...
did nt really sleep well cause back n neck were in pain..
went up to find a bed to sleep when sh n cythnia awake...
still nv sleep much much cause i keep coughing..

awake at 12+p.m...
chatted till 2+p.m b4 we check out..

me..daryl..sh..cythnia took bus to tampines int..
daryl n sh were playing some stupid game that we all laughed out loud in the bus..
train to bugis for lunch/dinner...
billy bombers hv promotion!
1 for 1!
bt..
they hv bad attitude..
i was holding 1 pack of fries..
manager came n told me that n outside food allowed when i already prepare to sit...tsk!

went to follow them to teach tuition at chinatown area...
b4 that...rest at sh's place..
i keep on providing nice songs titles for them to listen n for sh to dl...
tsk tsk tsk..

at the tuition place..
kids were so noisy!
i decided to teach 1 boy n 2 girl..
the girl was a primary 1 china girl she was rather the quiet n obedient 1...
i managed to teach her speeling..n she got all 10 correct!
woo..

the primary 2 chinese boy ar..
wanted to act cool to me..
he still said...'你都不凶的‘...
i told sh abt it..
then..
funny part is..
daryl pc sh all turned n told him..'hur hur 你找死啊!'...
bt by the end of the lesson..
he actually change his attitude to me n talked nicely le...

sh's father drove me to redhill stn..
i only managed to reach hm at 11+p.m..
even my father is annoyed of me..
i still got scoldings n hear screaming again.
bt i can take it...
i kw i can...

received NUS admission package..
i really sld make a right choice..
go study instead...

met up pei fen n hui yun at orchard, getting down to recruit express to find temp job...
we 3 were eating breads on a bench..infront of bossini shop...
ppl were walking ard...staring at us..
bt..
is there anything wrong?

window shopping ard..
my 1st thought..
it will be great if we got the $ to shop...

we 3 r ki-siaos!
whenever we enter any shop...we will start saying..
'ooh..can buy things for bintan trip'..
esp hy...shoes la...slippers la..bag la...clothes la...
we r crazy!

n..n...N!
i really find hats very nice!
bt..
if u wear it in sg..u probably get staring eyes again...
haiz..

we went the Heeren..
there is 'dessert story'!recommended by some magazines...

mango snow ice!



i'm so happy to see their big mirror in the toilet!
means i can take photos again!
woo!

wanted to shut off myself frm the crowd, from the world...
time to let my brain think, make my mind works...

20 years...
life full of climax...
hope my gd days able to outnumber the bad days...
wat exactly happened for the past 20 years?
happy?sad?depressed?rejected?numb?frustrated?nervous?

time to move on, time to move on..
sth that i tell myself everyday..
bt can i?
i'm still on the same spot...
don't dare to take the 2nd step...

right..
i still feel hurt...
hw to get rid of it?
time?
honestly...
there is no way...
has been 1 yr...
i'm still stuck with this kns feeling...

in another 3+mths,
i will start myself as 21..a real adult...
some1 that need, must learn to grow...
hw sld i start with..
job?career?studies?relationship?
or..
a totally new ME?

i got urge to cut my hair again...
till shoulder length?

wanted to sleep early ytd nite cause was very tired..
BUT
received ah pek's call n was hearing a person's complaints in the middle of the night...
ears were in pain b4 i went sleep...

2day...
i skip my job training...
cause my whole body ache...
i nt sure whether i sld carry on..

i kw myself...
only when there is an urgent situation...
that i will start to think of exactly wat i wan...

heard enough of screaming n insult at hm..
went back to sch at night...
just for fun....

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Song Title: If I Were A Boy
Singer: Beyonce

"if i were a boy
even just for a day 
i’d roll outta bed in the morning 
and throw on what i wanted then go 
drink beer with the guys
and chase after girls 
i’d kick it with who i wanted 
and i’d never get confronted for it. 
cause they’d stick up for me. 

if i were a boy 
i think i could understand 
how it feels to love a girl 
i swear i’d be a better man
 
i’d listen to her 
cause i know how it hurts 
when you lose the one you wanted 
cause he’s taken you for granted 
and everything you had got destroyed 

if i were a boy 
i would turn off my phone 
tell everyone it’s broken 
so they’d think that i was sleepin’ alone 
i’d put myself first 
and make the rules as i go 
cause i know that she’d be faithful 
waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)

it’s a little too late for you to come back 
say its just a mistake 
think i’d forgive you like that 
if you thought i would wait for you 
you thought wrong 

you know when you act like that 
i don't think you realize how it makes me look or feel 

why are you so jealous 
it's not like i'm sleeping with the guy 

but you’re just a boy 
you don’t understand 
yeah you don’t understand 
how it feels to love a girl someday 
you wish you were a better man 
you don’t listen to her 
you don’t care how it hurts 
until you lose the one you wanted 
cause you’ve taken her for granted 
and everything you have got destroyed 
but you’re just a boy..."

what will i do if i really were a boy?i will find a girl like me n treat her very well...ha...i kw is abit off here..bt i'm really a good girl wah...just that BOY u don't appreciate ok...

"telling myself to be self-dependent...i can't support on any1..i'm all alone...
being realistic..there is no forever friends..."

wat a day...

started with going job training at 8a.m...
meeting...
went down events area...
2day is ang mo kio mrt stn...

alicia told me that i can go visit her hometown...
vietnam...nha trang...
to wat she said...is a very beautiful place..with beautiful beach...n nice food..
woo..
hw i wish i can really go with her...

my 1st task...
approach ppl n say hi..
talk to them...

frm 11+a.m to 5+p.m...
i say hi to 134 strangers...
present myself to 5 ppl...
close 1 deal...
wao...
i can't imagine myself being like that...

it was really hot 2day...

i'm so shagged in train...
tired...
being a sales executive is nt easy at all...

or i sld put it this way...

being a woman working is tough...
hv to work when u r sick..hv menses...
end up gastric pain at the end of the day too...
i'm really tired...

i hv a stupid wish...
i wan to get married as soon as possible...
i really don't mind being a hsewife at this moment...
why nt?
i hate it...
i hate working for the sake of the smelly dirty $!
sickening!
argh!

i kw...
i'm day dreaming...
bt...
i really pray hard that day come sooner...